Apple music stole my own music

So I signed up for Apple Music and decided I didn't want or need to pay for another subscription. I have (had) almost a terabyte of music on my laptop that I personally physically uploaded from actual CDs. Now that I stopped Music subscription at least 40% of my personal music is gone: 40% of my playlists and 40% of all my music. I would search albums and see only numbers 2, 3, 6, 8 and 12 of the numbered songs there. I don't even know what's missing until I search it. Yes, yes, I have it saved on an external drive but I shouldn't have to plug it in and use it to find songs! They should just be there! I've lost my own music I created with my band even. I called Apple support and basically the guy, yes, this is a thing.

also when my old credit card did not pay for that month's Cloud it deleted files right off my Home Screen!!! When I paid it came back. Apple literally holds your stuff hostage. Next up? Apple will eliminate the E key and you will have to pay a subscription to use it.