apple music playlist

I used to have numerous songs in my 'Songs' section in Library. But due to lack of money I had to cancel my subscription (like 7-8 month ago)

Today I subscribed again , logged in to my account and I can't find my songs. I see similar songs in recommendations but my playlist disappeared. I tried turning on Sync with Icloud, didn't help .

how I can retrieve my huge playlist ? or apple decided to delete it without my permission?